05/16/25 - Fat Girl Friday - The Ugly Truth

05/16/2025

It’s not REALLY the 16th, I’m a couple of days late. And I will probably be just that for a little while as I get used to re-adding weekly blogs/check ins into my habits/routines. But the point (for now) is to be consistent as I adjust to the plethora of habits and routines that I have added to mine and Zabrina’s life over the last couple of months (there will be a more detailed “habits” blog soon). So for me, just taking the measurements every week is the starting goal. If I’m able to share them then I will, if I’m late I’m late. I’m not going to sweat it, I’m just going to focus on what I CAN get done and eventually it will all fall into place as my routines become easier.

I don’t know why I’m hesitating posting my measurements this time. I’ve always posted my weight, and have even posted full body (in my PT swimsuit even) pics. But the farther along my journey I come, the harder it is for me to be as open and honest with my website because I know that once I post it, it’s for the world to see. Not like I have to really worry because I’ll literally only have like 4 people actually make it this far in my blog this week BUT it’s the idea of having it out there that brings a knot to my stomach that makes me feel liek I’m going to throw up everything I ate today.

BUT I PROMISED myself I would face the reality of what I’m battling, and ALL of the ugly truths to it. I PROMISED myself I would give an unfiltered look into the journey of what makes this weight loss (and every other battle I’m facing) battle so hard. And without showing the horrifying numbers that I’m up against… or sharing the ACTUAL workings of my journey, I’m not being fully honest. And no matter if this just serves as a “I started here” reference point for my future self, OR if it’s able to help another human face their hard truths, I can feel it in my soul that I need to be FULLY transparent with the ACTUAL journey, and NOT just when I’m making progress like I seemed to have done the last time or two down this road.

So without wasting any more of your time rambling (nervous habit) here it is. This is where we are starting as of May 16th 2025. I’m so ashamed of these numbers that I haven’t even looked up what “healthy” numbers should look like in order to set goals because I know the mental turmoil the difference will cause. So for now.. the goal is to just create habits and mindsets that will start bringing these numbers down. And as we progress we will do just like I am with the other habits in my life that are proving to be SUPER successful, we will add baby goal by baby boal until we have an entire make over of yet another area of my life that I’m ashamed of and terrified to face.

I ask that you don’t use the following information to compare yourself, good or bad, and I ask that you take my facing this fear to be transparent as fuel to face your own demons and start making changes to unarm them.

Fat Girl Friday - Week 1 - 05/16/2025 Measurements:

Weight: 337

Chest: 53 Inches

Arms: 20 Inches

Hips: 61 Inches

Waist: 54 Inches

Thighs: 37 Inches

Calves: 15 Inches

Yikes.